Not Feeling Well

I'm very tired this week...

Endless work to do, endless problems to face and too stressed to perform.

I had nightmares a few times...

Dreamt of my colleagues scolding me, saying things that made me upset......

I have already collected the books that I reserved but have not started to read them as I have not finished my work.

Despite feeling not too well, I am still ticking away...sighz...handpain...got a blister on my thumb and I guess it's going to stay there for a long long time.

Kung Fu Pet & Baby M

Recently I'm into Kung Fu Pet.

After feeding my employees in Restaurant City and harvested my crops in Country Story, I went into Kung Fu Pet to attack for experience and $$$. (LOL)

Sidetrack a bit...

Baby Matthias fell off the bed two days ago and his mum was so devastated.

Dad put Matthias on the bed after Baby M split milk onto his shirt. Dad went to washup and Mum went to get nappy for Baby M.

Then Baby M turned himself and there he fell onto the ground.

My parents were so heartpain when they got to know about it. Till today, especially my dad kept on reminding Baby M's mum to be careful.

I think it is indeed very stressful...

Nowadays, having a baby really no joke... Stress on its parents, bankbook and ......

Baby M, quickly grow up...and de-stress us yozz.

But he is really very cute yozz...See, I'm a proud aunt. (LOL)

Cool Runnings

Years ago, a lecturer showed us snippets of the movie "Cool Runnings".

The movie was inspired by the true story of Jamaica's first Olympic bobsled team.

The four Jamaicans left their sunny tropical island to enter the chilly Winter Olympic Games to pursue an impossible dream.

They did very well though they stumbled along the way and didn't get to the finishing line as their bobsled overturned in the midst of the final race.

They got out of their bobsled and carried it to the finishing line.

The crowd cheered them on and they returned to the country as heroes.

I stumbled along my path of Opera...losing confidence and carried my anger and frustrations with me.

Even if I do not make it to my aim or expectations, I should be like the Jamaicans, tried their best to get to its finishing point.

Winning is not everything. If you keep on insisting on Winning, you get to lose it one day. If that day arrives, how strong your heart can resist the hard defeat that you are going to face?

You may borrow the DVD at the Esplanade.

Sick

Fighting against sore-throat and ulcers.

Ulcers recovering and sore throat down.

But flu is threatening to take over.

PLEASE, I don't want to be sick!!!

It's long weekend and I want to enjoy my weekends.

Starting a new book by Sophie Kinsella , "Can you keep a secret?"

Happy reading, Amai!

再穷也要去旅行

I reserved this book too.

You can also find this book at Popular and Book 2 is also out.

The title is [再苦也要去旅行]

I browsed through both books and I find them interesting.

I was tempted to buy but decided against it.

Placing a reservation for the book only cost me $1.55.

I think it is worth the bargain.

Silenced

I saw this book at Popular.

I want to read it.

The captions on the book are horrifying.

It is a bibliography of the author's abused life when she was little.

I have already reserved the book online. The library will notify me once someone returns the book.

Thank You For The Invitation

Just wanna say thanks for the invitation.

Thanks for remembering me and I am really thankful though I'm not attending.

Maybe it is my problem.

I afraid that I may not be able to join in conversations or memories that ain't for
me or experiences that I can't share cos I wasn't part of the picture.

It is good to have someone or a group to remember your birthday especially from people that you spend most of the time with.

I remember that I got very hurt when there was this year that people forgot my birthday and one of them told me that anyway mine was over and they went ahead celebrating someone's birthday. It was only belated 2 days......

I held back my disappointment and felt so lost. I left and drove myself to a deserted car park and sat in the car and cried my eyes out.

I thought I belong to this group, the group that I spent my entire 22 years in it.

Others may think that it's no great deal but it did matter alot to me at that period of time.

I wanna a sense of belonging and I thought I was part of the group.

Sadly I wasn't.

Even sometimes going out with friends, I have this wierd feeling that I'm someone extra, I shouldn't be around. Perhaps I shouldn't be around.

Am I such a pain in the neck or a thorn that is so irritating to the eyes?

Or am I just plain over-sensitive?

I used to go out often though I don't club, pub or merry-making alot.

I wanted to do opera.

Now, I stay mostly at home spinning cobwebs... FB alot recently...be a contented farmer in my countryside, cooking delicious meals in a small restaurant, training myself to be a gongfu expert and occasionally looking after my pet in pet society.

I blog so little nowadays...

I even thought of winding up my blog but I read up my previous entries in this blog and my hidden Kirk's Passion's blog.

I was so so....passionate ... so warm... so keen... so irritating sometimes as some entries were really straightforward...

I'm getting withdrawn...

I don't do opera that often.

I read more now, I love going to the Esplanade to borrow DVDs.

I stay at home most of the time.

I eat dinner 7 days a week most of the time.

I'm saving pennies and coins hoping to redeem my freedom one day.

I window shop and look at the pastries that make my mouth water BUT I do not allow myself the luxury to eat them.

I think twice, thrice even umpteen times before I buy something.

I don't want to end up being a lonely old hag with only coins.

One thing for sure, my opera dvds will be a good company as I have tons of them unwatched.

I miss my BOBO Bear alot... He had been such a good bear for me to cuddle and hug whenever I feel sad.

I really miss him a lot.

No bear can be substituted, the feeling is just not right.

It takes time to grow that amount of feeling and maybe it also takes time to let go of him just like letting go of opera and emotions.